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Thanks, Sarena

UPDATED September 2009

happy birthday jenne

she is 21 today!

im back in fbx for friday and part of saturday. so tomorrow night a few of us are going camping at Rosehip, about 27 miles CHENA HOT SPRINGS road. i'm pretty excited about it.

healy is amazing. ive got two lauras as roommates, one is about 8 mo younger than me and goes to school in van. amazing. raft guides are great too, and ive been working a lot and loving it. also hiked Mt Healy last week! yay! that was an awesome accomplishment. i plan to do a lot more hiking like that.

it has been very, very cold in denali this week. and i am broke so i cannot afford much more for layers. its freezing in fb too! wtf summer!

anyways, im doing great. life is perfect.

rena

may

is moving fast. i'm moving to Healy next week. Australia didn't work out. but i'm okay with it. things work out the way they are supposed to.

im in a semi relationship, and things are good. im just letting things be for now. letting them be.

i cant wait to move out of fairbanks. :)

rena

clean.

my life is stressed.

i move out may 1, which is a day that i have finals. oops.

then im homeless/semihomeless for 4 days. im gonna sleep in my car. and im just gonna be drunk allllll the time.

i leave here soon.

im sad.
(kinda)
i'll miss people.

rena

almost there, going nowhere

Disappear from your hometown
Go and find the people that you know
Show them all your good parts
Leave town when bad ones start to show
Go and wed a woman
A pretty girl that you’ve never met
Make sure she knows you love her well
But don’t make any other promises

The weight of lies will bring you down
And follow you to every town
Cause nothing happens here that doesn’t happen there
So when you run make sure you run
To something and not away from
Cause lies don’t need an aeroplane to chase you anywhere

I once heard the worse thing
A man could do is draw a hungry crowd
Tell everyone his name, pride, and confidence
But leaving out his doubt
I’m not sure I bought those words
When I was young I knew most everything
Those words have never met so much to anyone
As they now mean to me

we built this world of our own

library dwelling again. my computer is still MIA unfortunately. but its okay, i found an amazing computer lab at school. im on a HUUUUGE apple right now, working on my essay and listening to my ipod. you can basically personalize the computer for your own login..and it wil stay. im so amazed. i dont know why i havent been using this earlier, haha.

im listening to "thirteen" by ben kweller on repeat. my headis fucking attacking me, i cant handle it.

im planning on getting "if i am lost its only for a little while" tattooed on my footsie.

i really really don't want to re-write this essay. but i have to. its 7 now, i have 4 hours. i like to think i only have 2 though. maybe that will motivate me. who knows. im just glad my ipod is charged again.

friday night i went to an 80's party. it was amzing. i was the best 80's mom ever.

last night started off as a crunk party but then we moved. ended up being blah, sleeping in til 3:00 tdoday. i am worthless.

i just found out that i dont have a day off until april 27. fuuuuck me. this was my last day, and i spent it sleeping and doing homework. i fucking hate that.

im gonna leave the lyrics to this song, its that amazing. it makes you wanna fall in love.





We've been in the rain, we've been on the mountain, we've been round the fire

In fancy hotels, drank water from farm wells, we sang with the choir

I kissed your dry lips. We jumped off the high cliffs and splashed down below

skin to skin in the salty river
made love in the shadow

read books to each other, read the mind of the other, flew one thousand

we laughed and we cried at movies and real life and our ridiculous bets

we danced in the moonlight at midnight we pressed against back doors and wooden floors, and you never faked it

and frequently we ignored our love but we could never mistake it

we met on the front porch, fell in love on the phone
without the physical wreck

you gave me the necklace that used to hang around your mothers neck

we questioned religions, fed bread to the pigeons
we learned how to pray

we stood by the ocean, turned our hearts in to one
we layed in bed all day

we skipped on the sidewalk, skipped stones on the water
we skipped town

we've seen the sunrise with new eyes, we've seen the damage of gossip and true lies
we've seen the sun go down

had passionate makeouts with passionte freakouts...we built this world of our own

it was in the back of a taxi when you told me you loved me and that i wasnt alone

6:51, library

I'm at school on a library computer. I finally just applied to my PFD...phew...that would have sucked. Deadline is tomorrow.

My mac's hard drive ate shit last week, an hour before my huge english essay was due. fuck me. anyways, it'll be fixed later this week, but for now i'm $315 in the hole with this shit. fuuuck me.

I have a lot of schoolwork to do. now its 2 english essays and another english assignment due tuesday, bio homework due tues, and a huge geography/intl midterm tuesday morning after kickboxing. I hope i kill it. i just worked on the study guide, holy shiiiit. took me an hour to get 5 questions answered. 3 more geographical areas to go...and the library is freezing, so im going to do it at home. it's not like i have any temptations there. ok im outa here. work at 6:30 en manana.

ps. bonfire last night? killed it. amaaaaaaazing until the cops came. still. i love alaska. it was on the beach out by the airport, the tide came in and the fire was huge, good music playing (guitar and drums), two awseome dogs, and planes would come in DIRECTLY over us super close and their lights would hit the ocean and it was just..beautiful. and content.

...until, once again, the cops came. MUY LAME.

ok sweatpant time.
<3 renaface